Hey y’all!
Happy Mother’s Day!
This week is unlike any other. A whole new twist came up – and here I was doubting I’d have anything to write about. And now typing this I conclude you probs think that I make this up. Even if I say I don’t, it doesn’t matter because it wont change your mind.
But lets dive straight into this weeks reflection point. Any guesses…? Hahah let me just tell you.
Well I mentioned one of my fears before, but this one would have to be one I knew I’d dread the most. And FYI I’m not gonna share about going out of my way to face this fear…haha no. See it stopped me in my tracks.
I got to the red light and stopped. Moments later the light turned green so I lift the brake petal and begin to accelerate. But nothing. Odd. I tried again. And yep, for sure the car while the lights were on, it would not move let alone rev.
Ah! I have broken down and in the middle of the busy Drive, now with my hazard lights on. Things just got real. Cars now realising my lights behind me try their best to go around me.
Long story short, the Tow truck is on his way and 3 gentlemen came to push my car off the busy road. I an so grateful for them. And as of that day, I no longer have a car. Why? Simply put, the fix isn’t worth fixing.
And this experience, though I tried my best to share, doesn’t capture the whole experience. Because for the most part I was calm. Worried about incoming traffic but mostly relaxed. It was only when the gentleman and another roadside dude asked if I was scared, did I question my own emotions.
But this experience is such a paradox to how I felt at City Cave! The float was an incredible relaxing experience. Highly recommend, even if you just go once in your lifetime.
See in these moments I reflected. Again, Jesus was calm in the boat. When the outside reality was stormy, He was still. Like how when I changed my focus from praying all will be good, to questioning if I am scared. My focus changed from God and peace, to world and chaos. Like Peter when called to walk on water, saw the giant wave coming and began to sink [Matthew 14:28-33]. I also learnt more about patience again and trusting in God having control.
See we let out environment make us react and feel a certain way. Being stuck in the middle of a busy road waiting for a tow truck, is completely different from relaxing in a float. While both environments create different emotions, it’s how we respond to our situation that matters most. Because if my environment was at the floats all day.. boi I would be so relaxed it isn’t funny. And this isn’t to misunderstand and say that we don’t feel a certain way or accept reality. But it is putting what’s in God’s control, back into His hands.
And even now I experience the whole saying, time is money. For more time, you likely need more money. And more money, you need more time.
As I made the decision to take my first ever Uber, it was purely to save time, by spending more money. And also cuz I no longer have a car.
And I wouldn’t never have tried Uber if it wasn’t for the breakdown – and that’s the breakdown of the car… not me haha.
So whatever you’re going through, its not easy, but to let go and let God. Because all I know is that these next, whoever knows how long, my life will look a little different. Some new changes will have to be made, and I cannot do Uber forever haha maybe in emergency’s. But honestly, I do miss the freedom and fun of being able to drive.
God, you amaze me!
E
Matthew 14:28-33 NIV
“Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”
“Come,” he said.
Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”
Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”
And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.”
God of Peace
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